Shooting stars
2:03 AM Edit This 4 Comments »Yesterday night was magical. I was lying on my back watching the dark skies, counting the twinkling stars and identifying constellations. I was alone on tyler hill, the silence and darkness like a shroud enveloping me. The whole uni was quiet, as if I was the only one there that night. I wondered what everyone was doing. My family, were they ok? What did they have for berbuka? I miss home so very much.Yes, I do. My friends, were they having fun? Do they think of me sometimes? I hope so but if they don't, I understand.
It was a strange feeling, staring up at the immense black canvas.I felt..well, tiny and kinda peaceful too. My body, stressed and tired after days spent in front of the computer, finally could relax. Its been a very tough 2 weeks. My research is progressing well, Alhamdulillah, but I had some difficulties with the philosophical issues. I hate philosophy, seriously. It was really nice to just sit back and let my mind wonder for a bit.
Then it began. A shower of sparks lit up the sky, like millions of tiny fireflies. Then another shower started near the first one. Then another and another, until a huge portion of the night sky was filled with them. It was the first time I've seen a meteor shower. Beautiful, I thought. But it was just the beginning apparently. Out of the gathering of stars, one suddenly flared up and began moving. It flew across the sky and left a gleaming trail behind it. Then a host of other stars started followed it too. The night was like a brilliant magic show put up by the Al-mighty. Just for me.
Shooting stars. They say you should make a wish and it'll come true, but I didn't make any wishes that night. Shooting stars. It is enough for me to ask Allah for what I want and it is only Him that will hear my prayers. He comforts me when I cry as I berbuka alone in my room and think of Raya this year without my family. He hears me when I sigh with frustration over my research. He is there when I feel like quitting everything and He gives me that urge to go on. My loneliness, sadness and tiredness vanished. I realized that I'm not alone after all. Never have been.
Through the tears, I smiled. It was indeed a beautiful gift, that night. Shooting stars, I owe you one.
p/s- Happy fasting everyone!!!
4 smelt it:
waaaaaaa!!!
ur soo fortunateee!!
*envyy*
Jinan! Lucky that you were able to experience such beautiful moment. I hope you are doing well and don't worry dear. Soon you'll be back in Malaysia enjoying every buka puasa together with your family again, insyaAllah. xoxo. tc
ji, i know exactly how it feels like. probably all this secret crying is part of the foreign land experience we all have. i could relate to this post so so much. anyway, i do think of you :)) and it was such a great coincidence that you happen to be lying there when it happens! i saw none though i tried hard :(
tmc:
heard that kat malaysia pon boleh nmpk..hehe..but here it was really clear :)
myra:
thanks dear! hope everything is going well with you too..bile nk ada baby :) hehehe..xxxx
ferlynn:
thanks for remembering me! hehe..looks like you're enjoying your summmer so far! fab photos by the beach babe!!!
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